By KW Rodgers (1/07)
Hate
It eats away at my very core
Tearing me apart
It's like a cancer spreading slowly through my body
Killing all the niceness that it touches
I know that that it is wrong to ever hate
It makes me feel like I'm a slime
I want to change the way I feel
but my emotions are too raw
The hate I feel for her has sunk its jaws into my flesh
Its teeth are dug in deep with no signs of ever letting go
There has to be a way to make this hatred go away
Forgiveness should come easy but somehow it never does
I cannot seem to get past the words that she has said
They still remain so vivid and so fresh inside my head
I've tried to lock them in a box and push it to the corner of my mind
I thought that I had thrown away the key so they could never set themselves free
But hatred has a way of sneaking through the cracks and making itself seen
This hatred I have encountered doesn't hurt just me, but others in my life
Then the hatred turns to anger when I realize what it's become
It's like a downward spiral with no good ending in sight
Forgiveness is the only answer to alleviate this hate
But I myself am not quite ready so I guess that it will have to wait
I'm sure someday the hatred will diminish in intensity
Maybe then my heart can offer her forgiveness for what she has done
But until then it's up to me to make sure that this hatred doesn't rule my life
I need to focus on the good and leave the bad alone
One day...some day...I'm sure the hatred will be gone.
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